ok my a/c is finally fixed.Off and on its been breaking we finally got a new motor for it.maybe my makeover today will make me feel better but i doubt it.I miss my b/f really bad right now and i think its just cause life is kicking up a notch harder.with trying to find work and finishing college and its just hard.Im not a big cryer but the a/c got fixed last night i could finally sleep in clothing lol and i just busted out with the tears.i mean in 90 degree weather to 100 i was dying incase we use celcius thats 37.77777777 how ever many 7's there are hehe.I think i seriously have summer time blues.And it dosnt help that even ppl who are in love find something to complain about as well.I just dont get it.And no im not pointing fingers befor ppl who read this get mad or anything.


And maybe if u get upset easy stop reading lol.


I just feel fucked over by summer.I work my ass off all the time and for what so when i get money to get my passport i suddenly have to buy a 200 dollar book.Jeeze thanks fucking school.But for some reason i need a stupid expensive basic comp class to graduate from culinary school.Which is look bleak since i cant find a culinary job to save my life right now.And its sounds sucky but not even mcdonalds is hiring anyone right now.And i had an interview but excuse me for saying everyone in every kitchen of every resturant ive been to is all hispanic and cheap labor im getting pretty pissed off at this point.And i hate to say it but why the hell do i have to learn spanish to get a job how about if i move there i will but if u move here learn english.i hate that i cant talk to some ppl.Im very tired and i need something well someone i need my b.f i think he is the only one who can pull me outta my funks.oceans suck.yea i said it lol.ok that kinda made me feel better.The moment eveyone just relaxes stops complaining when they have nothing to complain about i will stop my rambleing.Im so sick of ppl coming up with things to make it seem like there life is horrid hard.I believe u have things others dont and they have worked way harder then u to get them so im wondering why those ppl still complain.

I guess im just tired.Ive finally worn out.I always take way to much on and then handle it but in the end when things fall down it always gets me.I guess i just have summer time blues and i miss you.